The fuse called regret

Hello, I am alive. I'm sorry that this journal has become a fic archive and meme dump, because the thought of sitting down to write my innermost thoughts in a single platform is kinda lost on me now. I felt a bit more comfortable sharing stuff in short, undetailed bursts in another social networking site. Anyway. For the meme: TV Show Survey

Pick your five favorite TV shows and answer the following questions about them. Don’t cheat!

1. SHARK
2. Gomen ne Seishun
3. Samurai Sensei
4. Shiritsu Bakaleya Koukou
5. Mayonaka no Panya-san

( The answer is (inside of me) 🎶 )

Title: Your Song (this one’s for you)
Pairing/Characters: B.A.D (Kiriyama Akito/Nakama Junta); cameo by Hamada Takahiro
Rating: G
Warnings: Mermaids; inspired by (and liberties taken from) Mousi’s very own mermaid AU. Slight angst? Only because of the potential for it.
Word Count: 2000~
Notes: For lilly0 in je_wakamono. Dear recipient, I apologize if there are elements of this fic that aren’t to your tastes (because they really can’t be helped), but hopefully you’ll still find something to enjoy in this. Thank you for your endless patience, mod-san (I’m sorry I’m so bad at B.A.D fic). Also, my utmost gratitude to Naya-tan, for (unwittingly) looking it over and encouraging me. ♥ Title (and summary) shamelessly taken from the ‘70s song by Sir Elton John.
Summary: “So excuse me forgetting but these things I do; You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blues”

( Beach AU? Check. Coffee shop AU? Check. Plot (not) twist? Also check. ...eh? )

Just a meme, because I'm 26 now and I should be writing my turn for the last round of shiritori (at writetomyheart) but what has that got to do with this post? Nothing. It's purely for procrastinating fun. Meme taken from the awesome beren_writes. :3

I only have 28 works so far, and it's embarrassingly short/senseless compared to those of writers I know and love. But. Anyway. Here's my list.

Top five hits:
1. 428 hits. 僕らの (Love?) Style; Ouran High School Host Club AU. Hey! Say! JUMP. Nakajima Yuto/Yamada Ryosuke.
2. 163 hits. Onigiri Love; College AU, meet-cute. Hey! Say! JUMP. Nakajima Yuto/Yamada Ryosuke.
3. 153 hits. The point of no return; part of defiancebyfire's Sniper AU. KAT-TUN, Jin Akanishi. Akanishi Jin/Kamenashi Kazuya.
4. 140 hits. ｢hug｣; in which Shintaro is a Shinigami assigned to none other than Tanaka Juri. Johnny's Jr., SixTONES. Morimoto Shintaro/Tanaka Juri.
5. 97 hits. At a crossroads; a what-if scenario, Kame and Jin met again after the shotgun wedding. KAT-TUN, Jin Akanishi. Kamenashi Kazuya, Akanishi Jin/Kuroki Meisa.

Top five kudos:
1. 20 kudos. 僕らの (Love?) Style; Ouran High School Host Club AU. Hey! Say! JUMP. Nakajima Yuto/Yamada Ryosuke.
2. 10 kudos. Whispers in the dark; terminal illnesses, inspired by the 2015 24hr TV drama special. Hey! Say! JUMP. Nakajima Yuto/Yamada Ryosuke.
3. 6 kudos. Say it isn't so; part of the Sniper AU. Hey! Say! JUMP. Nakajima Yuto/Yamada Ryosuke.
4. 5 kudos. Kiss Kiss Kiss (×5); Nakamaru Yuichi, kissing monster. KAT-TUN. Nakamaru Yuichi/(Kame, Junno, Koki, Ueda).
5 kudos. Onigiri Love; College AU, meet-cute. Hey! Say! JUMP. Nakajima Yuto/Yamada Ryosuke.

Top five bookmarks:
(not applicable)

[Error: unknown template qotd]I think about switching careers all the time. I keep thinking back and realizing that this (whole business of becoming a nurse) is the wrong choice. I only studied and earned my college degree because the elders wanted me to. I get the 'how did you graduate from college???' during interviews because I know next to nothing about the topic being asked of me, and I'm always tempted to answer back: 'I wonder, too.'

If I fought hard for it, then maybe I'd be a police officer by now, working my way up to becoming a detective... but I didn't. It's a little too late to go back in time now, and the way my elders control my everything (aside from the lack of resources) is what mainly prevents me from taking a step towards my actual dream career.

._.

For my best friend's birthday, I gave her 21 paper cranes. I told her about the ...legend(? Or myth? idk), that a wish can be granted with a thousand paper cranes. Real life, motivation (or lack thereof)... these things took me forever in folding up the cranes. I kept my promise, though. I still folded cranes when I had the time (and motivation). Now, I'm only a few cranes away to a thousand, maybe more because there's the first 21 of them I gave her (and around 14 more the year her son was born).

We met in high school, during our first year. We hit it off pretty nicely, but since I got transferred to the 'star' section, we basically never got to meet just to hang out. I had to make up excuses just so I can pay her a visit. My parents didn't allow me to go during my high school days because it's too far out. She's never been to my house, except the one time after college, because her (man) is friends with my older brother. She calls me, or sends me a chat, at very rare moments, just so she could tell me about what's up with her life. I'm too shy, or afraid I'll disturb her precious time so I don't call; or if I do, she's almost always not around (or "grounded" ...or hanging out with her other friends). And then the last time we talked, it just hit me―I'm the only one who thinks we're best friends. Just how messed up was this setting? Took me so long to realize that, too.

So. The next part should be addressed directly to that person. I have no idea how to contact her, though. Maybe I can just drop off the cranes at her house, leave it at the neighbors, along with this message.

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Four years, 11 months (going for a solid five come 2015) to complete 1,000 cranes. With this, I wish to be able to let go.

It's been fun, getting to know someone like (you). I don't regret it, but I need to move on―I can't be stuck here, just waiting for (you) to come around whenever (you) "need" me, because (you) can't call on every one else. I don't want our friendship to be poisoned by these negative thoughts―feeling like a second option (or worse, a last resort) is something that nobody ever deserves and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

Let this be the last thing I do for (you). May (you) live a peaceful and happy life.

Um. I write fanfiction now.

It started as a few snippets, drabbles, if it may. I'm still learning! I have many WIPs (that may or may not see the light of day), many things I want to read (or do write myself, since there are some things that make more sense in my head than if I try to ask someone else)--but here are the ones that did see the light of day. Compiling it here because feelingera ako it's convenient. Sort of.

Edits/Updates: Bedtime stories; untitled Tamamori/Senga

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( Drabbles/memes/snippets. )

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( Fics. )

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( Shiritori. )

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( ; ^ ; )/

I failed in the last round of shiritori (before the new order was posted), but jojibear wanted to see what I had in mind anyway, so here. >.> Written in the same vein as this fic, so prepare tissues (????).

Title:
Author: miss zero / dusk037
Character/pairing: Miyata Toshiya, Yokoo Wataru, Fujigaya Taisuke
Word count: ~300
Rating: PG-13, warning for mentions of violence
Beta: none

( Start word: Chain )

Title: A Scandal in Kanagawa
Author: miss zero / dusk037
Pairing: Koyama/Shige bff-ery
Word count: 333
Rating: Gen
Beta: None. Yet.
Disclaimer: The boys aren't mine. An old man named Johnny Kitagawa does.
Notes: Lots of references to BBC Sherlock, which I also don't own. 

( In which KoyaShige become Sherlock fanboys )

orz

Not putting this under a cut because why taint perfection?



Kamenashi slays my heart. This time is no different.